Learning to Fall - Boys Like Girls.

Ah, it hurts.

I'M SO FUCKING IRRITATED AT EVERYBODY NOW, URGH.
Why is my life going so downhill now? it gets worse and worse and worse and worse..
fanfuckingtastic.
You know what I feel like doing? I feel like not existing for this period of time.
Erase myself this earth. 
Because all I need now is just to have a good night's sleep. FOR HOW FUCKING LONG WAS THE LAST TIME I HAD ONE?
I'm stressed, oh so stressed. help me help me help me
I need to talk to somebody but the thing with people is, nobody really gives a fuck anyway right? 
I'm tired of this, i'm tired of everything. 

Hark, I think I need a Yanlee of some sort. 

uh oh, definitely not Mr Right. 

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Nowadays I have been having really really fucked up dreams. Things that I really hate to dream of, things that make me cry, and just last night, I dreamt that  I was suffocating. Like, just being unable to breathe. And I think that's going to happen soon. I literally can't breathe sometimes. I feel cold, my heart throbs, a few seconds of major headache and my chest constricts and I can't breathe. I don't know what's happening. And it always happens when I get too upset. I really need help, i think. 

And so, the grand finale of the Worst Week Evar. Lost my fucking wallet? knnbccbfymgad. I hate my life omg omg omg, FML. okay, okay. HAPPY PICTURES. FUCKING HAPPY PICTURES. 

yes, it's kesha, screw you bitch i don't like you. ):

I hate 2010. ):

STOP FUCKING SINGING THAT BLOODY SONG LAH.

I'M FUCKING SERIOUS.

KNNBCCB.

"When flowers gaze at you, they're not the only ones, that cry when they see you."
Boston - Augustana

Signed, Marissa.
@jzoyy and @evanchoooi

Except the third last one doesn't work for Joy, because I always laugh at her.
AHAHAHA, EPIC FAILLLLLLLLLLLL. (x100)

oh joy. says: 
):
IT'S PEOPLE LIKE YOU. IT'S PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO DISCRIMATE.
IT'S PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO STAND IN THE WAY OF TRUE LOVE. 
WHO CARES IF YOU'RE GAY? WHO CARE'S IF YOU'RE A HOMOSEXUAL? 
WHO CARES IF YOU LOVE YOUR DOG TOO MUCH! 
OR YOUR PIZZA! OR YOUR FINGERS? 
IT'S PEOPLE LIKE YOU. 
IT'S PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO STAND IN THE WAY OF WHAT TRULY RESIDES IN AN INDIVIDUAL'S HEART 
IT'S PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO KILL THE JOY FOR LIVING,

[hysteria says: 
it's wrong to say people love their fingers too much, joy.

oh joy. says: 
THE ONLY LOVE FOR SOMETHING WE COULD FEEL, YOU HAVE DESTROYED. 
shit you lah destroy my moving topic

[hysteria says: That too.

oh joy. says: 
GJUIDFGFDGYDHFIGJKSDFJSLJFIDOSP

[hysteria says: 
it totally adds up. "The only love for something we could feel"
HAHAHHAA. 
Zing!

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oh joy. says: 
WTF IS ZING 
ZING ZING KACHING 
IM RICH IM RICH

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oh joy. says: 
IM FILTHY FILTHY RICH 
I GOT MYSELF IN THE DUMP WOAH OH WOAH OH 
IM RICH, IM RICH IM DIRTY FILTHY RICH 
IM SO FULL UP WITH THE CASH 
I GOT MR BENJAMIN FRANKLIN WRITTEN EVERAYWHERE 
WOAH OH WOAH OH IM FREAKING FILTHY RICH

[hysteria says:
omg wtf SHUT UP

I hear the words coming out your mouth
As we talk about it once again
I can't believe all the words you said
Turned into regret once again 

So don't tell me what went wrong
To make it feel so wrong once again
I had a half a mind to work things out
But it's too late now once again

How can we make it when you're walking away
If I stay or if I go, to you it's all the same.

I had a feeling I was dead and gone 
Nowhere to belong once again
I could've swore you were just in my arms
Now you're just in a song once again

For me I'm walking on a worn path
Prayin' my feet don't walk so fast
In a tunnel with no light I stumble on the wrong side 
Of all I thought was right 
I try to look through my eyes but they're filled with tears
And the lines our love drew all start to smear
So I use my words just to keep you but
I'm speaking of things that you just can't feel

P.S, I freaking hate Baby by Justin Bieber, for more than one reason. 
Don't sing it to me!

Okay, okay. Happy post? Yes I think so too.
I promised you, right. :)
So i'm gonna be happy happy. But first imma wash my face.
okay done, so now i'm gonna talk about my trip to universal studios!

yes it was fun fun fun fun. Yesterday! I got rid of my fear for coaster schmosters. I think! But I know the secret, hurray. Galactica wasn't open, but the track was fucking huge! I swearrrr, it's so bigggggggggggggg. So first, we went to The Lost World, and rode the River Rapids, and it was so cute but cool! The water was super swishy, and there are mechanical dinosaurs all over that spit water at you. Got a shock at the end though, bloody T-rex. 
Then went to Ancient Egypt to ride the Revenge of the Mummies. It was an amazing ride, and for someone who is scared of coasters like me, that was awesomeeeeee.
Rode it 5 times, omg, and the photos we took were EPIC, i swear. Gabriel's face is so idiotic, you just feel like slapping it.

On the photo taken on the ride itself, he posed the same pose 4 times, you know you know, that :O (including hands on both side of face, sort of like The Scream) fucking gross omg.
The live shows are awesome too, super cool. Monster Rock, Lights Camera Action, Waterworld, and lots lots more. 
okay,okay. pictures!

"YES MINE IS THAT BIG!" hahahaha. JK.
more on facebook!

And finally for a day, I felt so free and happy.
I would love to go again.

"She's not a drama queen, she doesn't want to feel this way. only sixteen, but tired."
Beautiful Disaster - Jon Mclaughlin 

And I would change everything, just ask me.